Such a noob !

Firstly let me tell you i love Decembers i just do but this year totally sucked and this month is no exception !!
BIG BANG THEORY is also on a winter break whatever that means ..could it get worse ? 
Yeah a lot worse but that's not what i want to discuss today ..let's talk about happy things *looks around for inspiration* ...Nothing :(
   This seems like such a pointless post :S but its my blog ..no one reads it anyway ...so moving on the internship / job / donkey work that is my articles is turning out to be really dull and boring ..so not my thing..don't ask what my thing is i really don't know yet ..i can tell you what its not :

• auditing accounts , scrutinizing ledgers asking intelligent questions
• raising queries 
• filing e-returns , using a digital signature and feeling all smart
• visiting the babu at the income tax office and making him happy
• planning someone's tax
• raising eyebrows at people's lack of organisation and accounting knowledge ..BLAH RIGHT ? RIGHT ?

who could ever enjoy this ? When i picture things i just skip to the happy parts ..the fun parts which leads to big time WHAT THE FHAKS later :P

 I don't feel like getting up each day and going to work , i don't feel like doing this shit ..but i'm stuck here cause a simple BCOM degree without CA is not even going to fetch me peanuts..but i don't want the money . I'd need it but I don't want it ..I'd rather be a pony trainer :P

And you know what I'm missing a few people in my life right now ..missing as in not missing in the remembrance sort of way ..missing in the i don't really have anyone sort of way..but this to shall pass right (: 

  I feel lonely so i cry sometimes ..I need some sort of secure feeling ..its just missing . 

  I don't really know how to distract myself also ..cause ze job kinda sucks so i put my phone off for hours so that i don't call or text someone who doesn't want to hear from me . I want a grizzly bear hug.

Okay this is getting really sad ..but i just have one small question why aren't all the people i would die for and i was always there for not here for me ? *genuine doubt*

  Something inside me breaks a little everyday but its going to be okay ...because when all the bad things are done with only good things can happen (: 

   I'm going to laugh and love and smile again . Pinky promise to self :D 

PS : Grammar nazi's please fuck off ..i just needed to say these things to myself  >_<

I love you as much as i love pizza and that's ALOT ..so please be back shooooon :D 

My blogposts are deteriorating in size , frequency and matter ..my apologies ..i promise to be back shooon too ( again a promise to myself ..don't read this :X) 

Music beyond Mondays ;)

Haven't done a music monday in a long long time ..haven't posted at all in a long long time ...apologies ..! Newhoo..to compensate i'm going to share some awesome music that i've been listening to on repeat recently .
Sometimes i wonder what life would be without music or headphones :O...staring at the train compartment while you reach work ..conversations with annoying rickshaw walas...awkward conversations with people you don't like..i would never be able to pretend i didn't hear someone calling out to me ..That would be sad !
   Well i'm not anti social but some people are better avoided for the lack of having conversation substance ..Moving on to music monday :D
     
 Dear people I'm irrevocably , insanely , hopelessly in love with John Mayer since the first time i heard him and lets just say he puts words to my feelings ..and he's also hot *brownie points*

 Here is a very rare john mayer song that not many people have heard..i love it..it talks about the irrevocable hopeless kind of love (: 

don't say a word
just come over and lie here with me
cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see

I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
there I just said it
I'm scared you'll forget about me

Haveeeeeeee you met Michael Buble ...Okay this man has a magical voice ..literally magical..his music could be called country but then they call taylor's swift's rubbish country ..neway i don't like to typecast ..This song is about wanting to come back to that place you call home ..back to where you belong ..back to where you always go ..the place you love ..to overcome the regrets you may have ..back to the person you left behind ..this song is beautiful O:)

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

It is statistically proven that songs of heartbreak are listened to most in the world ..and almost everyone gets sappy and connects to sad songs at some point in their life ..when the words seem written just for you ..when even the mood is blue ..so there is this one song i really like by Chris Daughtry . It's called life after you 

All that i'm after is a life full of laughter 

As long as i'm laughing with you 

All that still matters is love ever after

And after the times we've been through

I know there's no life after you

Okay the next song is awesomeness ..there's also a story behind it..i heard this song weeks before its release and also song the video way  before the teasers also came out .let's just say i have contacts ;) :P All in all awesome song by david guetta feat usher

i can't win , i can't reign

i will never be the same

without you , without you 

I am lost , i am vain ,

i will never be the same 

without you, without you

And before this post becomes a never ending display of my entire playlist i'll end with an
awesome song by COLDPLAY :D :D ...its there brand new track that i've been listening to on repeat everyday ..it's called paradise i love the beats <3

When she was just a girl

She expected the world 

But it flew from her reach so

She ran away in her sleep 

And dreamed of 

Para-para-paradise , Para-para-paradise , Para-para-paradise 

Everytime she closed her eyes 

>.<

p:s i love knowing about new songs so if you have any song that you've been listening to on loop cause you know its just that awesome do let me know (: 

BLAH !

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