I have this thing ..i get attached to anything and everything . Right now at this moment i'm attached to this fish gadget ..i'm really bored of it but i'm not going to remove it simply cause i'll feel a little empty when its gone , the space it fills will seem strange when its gone. No i'm not using the fish as a metaphor i really like IT .
Newhoo so where were we ? Yes attachment . I'm attached to people and then they become so important it gets really hard to not be insecure and give them all you can..even if they don't appreciate/understand the attachment ..i love and then i love too much and then it starts hurting but i still love till i can't anymore then i love someone else . Is that wierd ? I don't know. I don't know the meaning of just enough. I don't know when to stop ( this is the case in many areas ) I don't know when to say yeah okay that's it i'm not going to let something affect me. I'm writing this post at 3.50 am with flies in my head literally not a thought is passing through ..nothing just some kind of vague fear of loss or the fear of future loss .
Is it wrong to keep someone believing that you still care about them and that your still that attached ..or falling apart is a part of life and facing it the reality . Many times i want to ask people close to me DO YOU LOVE ME ? DO YOU REALLY ? i need a certain reassurance from time to time to know that yes someone somewhere does love me at all times no matter what . And i think everyone needs that ..but no one accepts it ? Pride ? Ego ? Well i do ..i need the reassurance that i'm loved not at every moment not everyday but yes often ! Attention deficit syndrome ? I don't think so ...more like i am a compassionate person that's all..and this is a recent development ..a few years back i was very unattached , not bothered about anyone almost brutally selfish ..maybe later some people came into my life who i wanted to be attached to ..some people i wanted to call my own ..some people i would do anything for ..I became more generous ..loving ..not understanding just loving ...!
Sometimes i'm so unreasonable and want things to go my way..so stubborn but i want someone to say they'll deal with it and thats all its going to take to make me more understanding and less stubborn , more secure . I want to be a secure person ...i want to be sure of people ..i want to not be scared of loss ...SOMEDAY !
Ps : People who read this post will know more about me than someone who has known me all my life :) So don't judge eat fudge :P
Who doesn't know about Anna Hazare and his purpose but how worthy and effective is it really ? Congress comes out as a failure in so many ways its actually shocking. Its just like during the emergency when Jay Prakash Narayan tried to protest and his followers were jailed for those who don't know what happend then see this. Well Indira Gandhi had to step down and Morarji Desai became Prime Minister.
Cut to today Anna Hazare emerges as a selfless man fighting for the benefit of the youth and the future generations to make India corruption free , is it possible ? Who knows until we try . From lawyers to Dabbawallas everyone is on strike to support this 74 year old man while he fasts for the country. A peaceful struggle to make India free of corruption and making politicians more responsible for their actions. Are they saying that the 2G spectrum scam would not have happened if the Lokpal Bill existed ? Everyone talks about the problems they face because of the corruption in the government offices and institutions covering all areas , but what are they doing about it. Until each person takes a personal call and decides not to resort to corruption nothing will improve.
Let me give you an example to explain how corruption in India really is ..its like you need to enter a building it has a big door and a guard stands at the entrance and refuses to let you enter until you tip him so what do u do ? You desperately want to get into the building but you say NO to corruption and choose to stay out . While you wait for the guard to change his mind someone else walks by gives him a hefty tip and enters the building with pomp and there you are doing the right thing but missing the opportunity .
Yeah its a sad story and yes changes have to be made from the roots but Anna and his men are fighting for a very far fetched and fairytailish goal but they are fighting and they are trying . Cynicism comes to Indians very easily but this time it looks like India is talking in one voice fighting for one cause and acting like one person.
Manmohan Singh as PM disappoints in so many ways , they are always calling him a mere follower of Sonia Gandhi's thoughts and orders , but now whats the problem she isn't here and its his time to take a call. He's not a normal politician , he's well educated with a sound mind and yet he fails to perform. Why ? Why did he let the issue reach this level ? Why did he promise something and do something else ? Why did he have to imprison Anna ? Why did he not think of talking it out and coming to a consensus. ? I don't know but Congress is going to pay for this and how .
As India reaches to extend their support to Anna i hope he succeeds and his energy stays just the way it is. They call him the new Gandhi. They call him a crusader. I call him a common man tired of the system.
Jai Hind !
Ok so maybe i forgot to mention my IPCE ( Integrated Professional Competency Examination ) results came on 8th August and i have successfully cleared both groups *parttttttttttttty* or really ?
For those who are unaware about my topic of discussion i cleared my Inter CA ( chartered accountancy ) exams which consist of 2 groups and 7 papers :
Group 1 : Accounts
Taxation
Law , Ethics and Communication
Financial Management and Costing
Group 2 : Advanced Accounts
Audit and Assurance
IT and Strategic Management
And so its not exactly such a happy occasion because life and its struggles don't end there :( ..passing both groups means i now have to start something known as articleship ..which will be 3 years of rigorous training in a CA firm as an intern which will give a practical base to my theoretical knowledge =) and only after this can you give you CA final attempt !
Sounds so nice and easy believe me it isn't ..
The problems start with whether to join a BIG firm or mid sized or small one ....how does it matter ?
Well what i mean by BIG is really BIG !
THE BIG 4 - Anyone who works in finance knows what i'm talking about ..the Big 4 are the sharks of the business ..they are bigshots and no one even gets close to their scale of work ..any remotely big company ( smaller fish ) is taken over by them and eaten with bones ..besides they are workaholic and expect you to be one to at the age of 18 - 19 and devote your lives to them for a nominal stipend ( remuneration ) of a maximum of 7000 a month ..they ask you to leave college and do correspondence ..they ask you to break it to your parents that they will not be having a child for 3 years from now and they make you go through a humongous interview process to give you the scary corporate feel so that u can work as an assistant to a under-graduate :) ..for more info on the big 4 see this ..http://www.big4.com/
why would you want to do this ?
No reason ...as of now they might have trashed my cv like thousand others ..i haven't got a call from here yet
Mid size firms
Yeah they are the dolphins ...nice easy life not too much work ..monday to saturday ..no late nights ..no corporate feel ..just something your doing out of compulsion so taking it easy . Here you are acknowledged your presence is felt and people know of your existence and might just care about your well being . They hope to be big 4 someday ..everyone wants to be a shark *rolling eyes*
Why would you want to do this ?
You learn everything ..your not stuck in a single department ..you get to make coffee for the boss ..the setting is casual and life is easy and YES you have a LIFE !
Small firms
They are the Angelfish in the OCEAN ..small very small ..lost like Nemo ! You don't have work here ...your the manager and the peon and also the boss at times ..no one cares when you come or when you take leave ..appointing articles is a formality for them and doing the articles is yours ..Mon - Friday ..only from 10 - 5..its as good as being free all day when does anything happen before 5 neway .
why would you want to do this ?
Your dad knows the boss and he lets you walk in and out of the office as and when you feel like ...and plus your JUST PLAIN LAZY !
Now ME ! New to all this ! First CA in the family ....first CA in the whole neighbourhood of my ancestral village of Gujarat . Experience - Zero !
What do i do now ?
Hand drop and email my CV to every Ca firm there is in the whole of Mumbai ! Make appearances at random offices for walk in interviews , stare at my phone for a call back ..or maybe a interview call ...or maybe someone just wants to be nice and just give me the job without an interview ( it could happen ...i watch movies ok )
Then what happens ?
NOTHING ..Zilch ! No job ..! Big 4 don't care mid sized firms take interviews but don't call back and small firms , well i don't want to go there !
So i patiently wait for a job and just wait some more ! Will keep you'll in the loop :D
Ps : Ca's are BORING people and their offices are dull and stuck up but I'm going to still be AWESOME ;)
Pps : I now know a lot more roads than i did earlier because of all the finding the office business
Ppps : MUMBAI IS BEAUTIFUL <3
Pppps : Nothing BYE i just wanted to add one more :P
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