The type of days :|

The type of days i'm having :

• I want to break my phone so that nobody can contact me and just leave me alone and i don't succumb to the urges of talking to anyone 
• I want to forget everyone who exists in my life and start new with new people ( yeah i'm sure people do that all the time ..right ? it's normal :S )
• I want to smoke up my worries and issues 
• I want just be quite and not have to speak to anyone or go to work or not want to keep trying for useless things ( read people )
• When i listen to music it seems like noise and i just end up putting it off.
• I want to just not hurt anymore and embrace the changes taking place for me but i can't.
• I don't want to wake with the realisation  that most of the happy things in my mind were only dreams.
• When I don't like being left alone with someone i make sure there is a third person around so that i don't have to make conversation.

The type of days i want to have :

• Days when i'm so happy i'm goofily smiling all the time
• Days when my music shuffle plays happy songs on its own accord 
• Days when I feel like I'm important in someone's life and i feel like having a good time
• Day's when i work alot and then have a peaceful sleep in the night 
• Days when i'm smiling without having to try
• Days when i meet new people and feel warmed by it
• Days when i start liking rain again
• Days when i see the happy things in the worst circumstances 
• Days when  i'm in a good mood :D
• Days when meeting people makes me smile and not irritates me
• Days when i can relax and not think.

Ps : I wanted to make this pic ^ the header for my blog but its too small :( but its still cute :D

Note to self : Its not that bad it never is ..now i only have to get from what i have to what i want - its never too difficult for me anyway cause i'm awesome :P *self hug* ( if thats possible )

No clue why i'm posting this ..but a little birdie told me humans dwell on  miseries ..they want to know things are wrong in other people's lives to feel good about theirs so here it is for someone else to feel better ..love u dear sadist !

The First Times - Part 1

Anything that one does for the first time , or the first of every experience is so vivid and clear in our memory , special in so many ways ..it could be anything your first love , first job , first day at school / college ? Anything. The novelty of the first time is unbeatable. So why this post ?

  Well every girl has this one blue eyed boy she fell in love with , her first love , the first man who broke her heart ..the first :) This is the story of mine.

    There he was with his ruffled hair and soccer player looks ..people looked at him wherever he went ..Mr popular at school with an accent that made all the girls blush. How did i fall for the stereotype ? No clue . No it wasn't like the movies , which movie ? Well there are only who types of movies 

• Type 1 - Girl loves boy but boy is blissfully unaware of the girl's existence in the world and suddenly massive makeover and a kiss below the mistletoe
• Type 2 - Girl and boy are bestfriends ..boy looks for his perfect girl everywhere except right next to him eventually fall in love - kiss under the mistletoe

( Remember to throw in other slutty sidekicks who are also behind the boy in each type :P )

My story was neither ..no we were not best friends ..and yes he did know i existed ..we were friends, good one's at that ..he sat beside me in class all throughout 8th grade ..i don't remember breathing at all that year ..he would just take my breath away ( Hey bhagooo so cheesy :P but its true )..the friendship continued i secretly checked our zodiac compatibility and Flames :P We were perfect :P I would feel him enter the class because of the strong smell of his awesome perfume :D *heart melt* We could chit chat for hours about anything under the sun . We shared stories. He made me laugh and we also fought alot and drove each other crazy.

 So yeah life was beautiful , birds were chirping and you know happiness and all that ...but then he went ahead and asked his long time high school love out  ..and i came to know only after he had done so  ..was a surprise for me  apparently ..and a surprise it was. Our zodiacs matched :O :( ..And that was my first heartbreak .

   I cried the whole night that day..and missed school for the next two days ...didn't speak to him for a week and then when he started asking questions *heart melt* i pretended like it wasn't bothering me . I loved him all throughout school and when i went to college he was there too O:) i was sooo happy about it ..but we lost touch even after so many years of friendship we kinda drifted apart ! From sitting next to each other for 3 years in school we went to a mere greeting in the college canteen . Am i over him ? Ofcourse . But when i see him in the college corridors and meet him outside somewhere by accident my heart still skips a beat ..i still remember the smell of his perfume and it still brings a smile to my face ...When he waves at me from across the street i want to dance and when he's gone after speaking to me briefly i hope i was looking my best and didn't say something stupid :P And that my friends is  the magic of Firsts ...and the  first love is always special.

  

Ps : The high school love and him have broken up and he's hot and available but i don't want to ruin the memory by falling for him again ! My first love ! Someday I'll marry him - a girl is allowed to dream ok :P

Note to self : Next time I'll tell you'll how the first job is going so lets call this " The First Times - Part 1 " :D

Adios 

Update post :)

hello everyone ! 
Remember the internship i had told you'll about that i needed to find for myself well you are now reading the words of an Articled Assistant at GPS and Associates :D yay ! 
The firm is really nice ..the people are friendly ..its been a week ..life is a new level of awesome i already have a feeling of accomplishment .Looking forward to this :D


ps : My article on Anna and gang got published in the viewspaper wooohooo :D
I had already posted it on the blog as well , didn't know it would get published newhoo you'll can see it here 


Pps : At the Induction held for us at GPS and associates we were shown this amazing video ..its Steve Jobs speech at the Standford Commencement in 2005 . Watch it . Very inspiring :D